army girl

assalammualaikum wbt..
firstly sory to ols sebab pca da lame x update blog ni...for now pca amat bz dengan kelas n sume aktiviti yang berkaitan dengan wataniah..plus pca punye sis da nk get married another 2 weeks from now so,pca amat sibuk membantu beliau..ok,bile ade kelapangan nanti pca janji akan update blog n share dengan korg citer mengenai rekrut and all the event yang pca da join..ok?
salam sayang,
pca

pD again??

hallu guys.. here i wana share with you bout my sweet memory with my beloved.. this is my second time going to pd with him.. but, this time we had spent a great time together..
 17.03.12,,,will not forget that date.. huhu..pas abis class aku straight going to seremban... sebab dak2 ni sume berkumpul kat sana.. sampai kat semban around 4pm..then lepak jap pas tu terus gerak g pd..sampai je kat sana terus pasang khemah.. malam tu baru la ade wat makan2 skit..
here i share with u a few photo's..

huhu..ok..but the most thing that i liked so much is.. on the way back to seremban, hery give me ride his bike! yeyeaahhh..hahaha...it's quite long im not ride so,this is a golden chances he gave to me.. ape lagi..balik tu mmg merempit lah..huhu..tu kalau abah tau aku merempit,mau dia pancung pale aku..hahaha..ok.. i think..thats all for now.. hope.. u guys enjoy..
have a nice days ya!

pasrah..

hi guys. actually i dont know what shud i write here. there's so many thing in my mind but i dont know how  and which part that shud i start with first. first of all,lets pray for late of my friend, mohd fuzi yaakob because he's no longer in this world. he was passed away.. yeah.. little bit upset and still shock with that news but what can i do? we have to continue our life. ntah la... rase sedih plak. tapi mmg betul lah orang cakap. kita akan lebih menghargai bila orang tu dah pergi tinggalkan kita.. masa hayat dia,tak ade sape pon yang nak kisah and peduli samada arwah tu sihat or x. bila dah tak ada barulah nak ratapi n timbul rasa menyesal. tapi,itulah manusia. apa pun.. semoga roh arwah dicucuri rahmat and ditempatkan dikalangan orang2 yang beriman. insyaallah..amin..
al`fatihah.....

andai itu takdirnya...

hye guys..wassup??mesti korang pelik kan ngan title post aku kali ni...hurmm..tu yang aku nak story mori ngan korang ni....huhu....korang pun taw kan yang lately ni aku agak bz dengan assignment n aktiviti2 lain..so,sume tu wat aku stress..then,bila aku stress aku x leh nak fokus on 1 things.aku jasi serabut..then bila aku serabut,aku x leh nak pk dgn betul...so,nak dijadikan cerita,aku ade misunderstanding with my muncit..aku pun x taw ape masalahnye and who should be blame.may be aku yg terover emosi kot..kitorg gaduh then aku pun terlepas cakap bnda yg x sepatutnya..then,when im realize it, i try to perbetulkan balik keadaan.tapi,bnda tu x semudah yang disangka.. aku pun macam da nak give up n tak taw cam ner nak pujuk dia. on that time.aku betul2 down n stress..ye la..she's my only sis..she's da only 1 i had..klu aku ade adik lain tu x ape..aku x kisah sangat..ye la..bukan baru semalam aku knal dia...aku jaga dia..so,bila dia wat hal..aku rase lain..bila aku marah dia,dia cakap aku blame dia..aku pun x paham....aku yg bermasalah or orang2 kat sekeliling aku ni yg x pernah nak memahami? ntah la.....so,for now aku just bia kan je dlu..aku da penat nak menangis and aku da penat asik nak jaga ati orang lain je..ati aku ni tak pernah ada sapa pun yang kisah..ok lah..aku pun x taw ape nak tulis lagi..so,salam kemaafan n salam kerinduan... 
PcA

sampai bila??

assalammualaikum,
firstly i wanna apologize to everyone if i ever had make a mistakes. i just human being and cannot avoid from any wrong doing. actually, what i want to write here is about the burden that i carry..seriuslly, i cannot stand with it any more. it's too heavy and i cannot carry it alone.. i need someone to share it with me..but, i dont have one.. with the problem i face right now,with all those kind of assgnmnt, with the people around me, all that make me sick!i hate this feelings. im not stronh enough. why should i face all this?
 kenapa aku perlu rasa tertekan? kenapa aku rasa lemah? kenapa aku rasa macam aku tak mampu untuk menanggung apa yang aku alami sekarang ni? aku rasa macam nak nangis. tapi atas sebab apa?? menangis sebab kelemahan diri sendiri?? entah lah..aku sendiri tak taw macam mana caranya untuk aku bertenang dan berfikir secara positif.otak aku berat sangat. macam mana caranya untuk aku hilangkan semua tekanan yang aku alami ni?


 "ya Allah,kau berikan lah aku kekuatan dalam mengharungi ujian yang Kau beri..sesungguhnya ujianMu terlalu berat dan tidak tertanggung olehku ya Allah. Kau ringankanlah bebananku ini dan Kau berikanlah aku dahan untuk berpaut supaya aku dapat berdiri dan meneruskan kehidupanku diduniaMu ini"


  semoga kesakitan yang aku tanggung ni cepat berlalu. aku dah tak larat sangat. berlakon okay depan semua orang semata mata nak gembirakan hati dorang sedangkan aku sendiri merana. kenapalah tak ada sapa pun yang memahami aku??sangat sedih.. seriusly,i need someone. aku perlukan seseorang yang boleh pinjamkan bahu untuk aku menangis. aku dah tak larat nak pendam semuanya seorang diri.. aku rase jiwa aku pedih sebab tak dapat nak luahkan apa yang aku simpan.


  ntah la..aku pon dah tak tau ape lagi yang aku nak taip..kepala dah berat sangat and i need some rest..see ya..
salam,

sAcrificE

assalammualaikum and happy Saturday to alls..
so,what news haa? huhu... it seem like, i have take a long "leave" from written in my blog right? and my blog admirer already ask me why im not update my blog?and for my blog admirer, here i write my story for you.. keep reading ya!
OK guys..lately ni i admit yg i am quite busy with all my commitment and  i know i have no time to spent with others. but believe me, never at once I want to ignore person around me. and now I've decide to join military army at my campus. that's means, i'll be more busy and i dont know what will happen to me next. for now, what i know i just want to get what i want. i want to get my dream and i want to enjoy my life as much as i can. i know i cant keep others away,but i have decide and i already make a decision. this is what i want so i hope everybody around me will understand me.
 sacrifice that i mentioned here is, the things that i should face and let it go if im still stick with my decision. what choice do i have? i have a dream but in the same time i dont want to make anyone around me fell disappointed of me. i have to care about their feeling but are they care about me?
 guys..is it wrong if i want to get what i want? ntah la..i think better i stop now and i will write again ok? c ya..

nego ohh nego!

..ok..for thist post,i want to write about our presentation for negotiation subject..even we had a last minute discussion, our prof give us two thumbs up and he said that our group is the best and did a excellent presentation... alhamdulillah for that.. so,its not useless and not waste my time..just imagine, we spent almost 7 hours just for discuss about that.. and,we did it well so we deserve to get the appreciation from prof..at first tu, i am quite nervous but i tried to calm myself and i can did it! yeaay! haha...so happy when the presentation had over..so,after this i can focus and concentrate on my others assignment.. to me, this sem are so heavy and tough..i dont know either i cant carry it or not..just imagine early of this semester lecturer already give us assignment. then, with all kind of test and quiz, plus night class..i felt like i had not much time and it burden me..what choice do i have? by hook or by crook, i need to go thru all that rite?ok..stop story about thiss..dah x ade idea la...

the truth is...

salam guys..i dont know why tonite i felt like wana explore my fwenz blog.just explore and not hacks ok??im not a hackers..huhu..jahat kan??so,when i go thru her blog,i realize that..life should be appreciate by everybody..ntah la..but i like to read her written inside there.. frankly speaking, im not a good one but it doesn`t mean  i cant change my self right? everybody ever makes a stupid mistake.. it same goes to me.. and, there should be no problem to others to give forgiveness n i think everybody also deserve to have the second chance.. if i cant be a good one at least i've try my best to change my self..
 i had a dream to reborn again.. because i wana be a new person.because i wana feel free from any sin and feel free to do whatever i want.. i want to change my life style n i want to forget all that has happened in my life. i want to forget about the things that make me hurt and almost ruin my life.it is not easy for me to stand back after i down..it takes a long time and u need to be strong and fit enough to face a new life.. without a strong spirit, and without a soul..u are useless and u are nothing! just remember.. who are you today is because what u have done in the past.. that is meant, ur life style going to decide who are you in the future.. so,who i am today is related to my past..my experience and what i have been through..
 for now,i already have someone to be loved..and i hope he can help me to change my life and guide me to the right way.. now i depend my life on him..now,he's my strength and my everything...i hope he will be my mr. right..i am 22 and i have no time to flirt around..it is a time for me to being serious and give my commitment in a relationship..
ok la..im sleepy now and i want to have my sleep.. i'll write again if i had idea...ok..
salamm


with love,
PCA

bila ku rinduuuu..

korang pernah dengar x lirik lagu ni.. "bila ku rindu,aku tersebut namamu.."hahahahaha....so,kali ni aku nak sebut nama dia bebanyak....sebab aku rindu kat dia..nak taw sape?? lu pk la sendiri.....aku tunggu dia mesej dari tadi tapi tak ada pon..bz je memanjang..tapi aku x leh nak komplen bebanyak..sebab aku kena la paham dia cam ner..tadi dia ade call aku kejap..pas tu,dia senyappp..selalu cam tu..ingat minggu depan nak g jumpa dia....tapi x taw lah.....dia cakap dia bz..so,aku kena tunggu keputusan dia..then baru leh set time n date nak jumpa..huhuhuhu.....wndu my b sooo muchhhh!!!!!!!!!! nk jumpaaaaaaaaaaa...

weeeeeeeeEEeee..

salam n hcny to all...
ok guys..kali ni aku nak citer pasal event yang aku join ari tu..
23.01.2012 aku ikut hery g konvoi kt pd..actually...it such a reunion that reunite us from sj skull..from my batch until junior batch...
he pick me at my home(bangi) at 930 am then we had our breakfast at sj..then,around 10am we'r assembled at shell sj n wait 4 the other...almost 30 bike join for this convoy.. at first tu aku cam cuak gak cos nobody that i knew..tapi lelame tu,ok la...ade gak junior yang kenal aku tapi aku x kenal dorg...
smpai kat pd,kitorg berkumpul sebelum memulakan aktiviti..

pas tu diorang pun memulakan acara sebelum bermandi manda..

yang x bole bla tu,dorg main bola leh plak kene kat kepala aku..berpinar sekejap pale aku ni...nasib baik kemera aku xade pape..klu x,aku suh dorg reramai ganti kamera aku..hikhik,,actually,aku xsempat nak amik banyak gambar sebab kamera xad ngan aku...so,pepaham je la..

yang ni gambar head of the convoy...die la tekong event ni..hehe

ok la..aku rase tu je kot yang boleh aku kongsikan..yang lelain tu biar la jadi kenangan aku sendiri..

ok guys..tata

kehilangan..

aku sedih yang teramat sangat.....aku baru je lepas kehilangan kucing yang amat aku sayang...sekian lama aku bela kucing tu at last die pegi jugak tinggalkan aku...at first aku dpt taw kucing tu mati aku mmg sedih giler....xtaw nak cakap pe..aku hanya mampu menangis....dulu anak die mati eksident..yang ni bobot plak mati mengejut....hurmmmmm..aku hanya mampu pasrah je.... :'(

aku ke yg bersalah?

aku xtaw la npe ngan diri aku lately ni..aku yg bermasalah ataw org yg disekeliling aku yang x pernah nak paham aku???aku kecewa n sedih sgt dgn pe yg berlaku ni....ape salah aku??kenape semua orang nak membuang aku???first kawan2 aku...dowg wat aku ni cam xwujud je..aku dipinggirkan....dorg da x perlukan aku lagi...aku sorg2 je skg...aku da xad sesape..then,akak aku....sngup tinggalkan aku kat tepi jalan...kenapa???kenapa semua orang macam da xnak amik taw pasal aku??nak sgt ke aku ilang dari idup korg??

puas da aku pk pe kurangnye diri aku ni...pe salah yang aku dah wat kat korg sampaikan korg nak buang aku jauh dari idup korg..klu korg da xperlukan aku lagi just cakap je...walaupun susah,tapi aku kne terima jugak..da tu yang korang nak...aku x kan halang..tapi tolong la...aku pon ade hati..aku jugak manusia cam korang...aku x pernah mintak ape2 pon dari korang kan?aku cuma mintak korang paham aku..tu jer....

jgn korg ingat bila aku diam,aku xmmpu nak melawan...aku bukan xnak melawan...cuma,aku rase..bnda tu x perlu..korg sumer da besar n da matang kan?x kan tu pon nak kne cakap..patutnye korg kne alert about feelings...x semua orang bole terima gurauan yg melampau...mmg aku ketawa n mmg aku senyum..tapi sebenarnya...dalam hati,aku menangis...ake sedih sebab diperbodohkan n diperkotak katik kan oleh kawan....patut ke aku panggil korang kawan??

skang ni aku sorg2...pegi kesana sini pon sorg...aku xad kawan..akak aku pon da x syg aku....ye la..org da ade tunang....die janji nak kua ngan aku..tapi alih2 die kua ngn tunang die....x ke ko frust cam tu?

da la..aku da xmampu nak pk pape ag da..otak aku pon da sakit ni..so,aku nak rest...aku hope,tomorrow l'll fell better.. insyaallah..

kesedihan

ape perasaan korg bila kawan2 korg bahan korg??ktuk2 korg??mesti korg sakit ati kan??same goes to me lor....im hurt when they tease me like dat..ntah la...mmg aku senyum..mmg aku ketawa..tapi aku terluka...aku x suka...aku x mampu nk marah2...aku x larat..tapi tolong la paham aku..aku pon ade hati and perasaan jugak..hormat la kat aku skit....jgn la wat aku ni mcm mainan korg...lagi satu..korg xpayah nak berahsia sangat la..at last kantoi gak ngan aku kan???so,xpayah la nak wat aku ni macam tunggul kayu....!!..depan aku korg sikit pnye baik..belakang aku??korg kutuk,mengata,mengumpat,n sume citer buruk pasal aku..
korg kne ingat..aku pon manusia cam korg gak...ade had kesabaran....jgn sampai aku ilang sabar ngan korg da la.....